As if it's not enough that I have created pure drama for myself in the last month or so, I was sucked into someone else's drama recently that I truly believe will enable me to walk forward in a straight line and never look back.
I have learned that you can do all the "right" things, say all the "right" things, and be the best person you can be, yet somehow, it may never be enough. And I guess I have to be ok with that.
I have experienced massive amounts of confusion, been down the road to sad, back to angry, up to hatred, back down to love, and landed here, at utter indifference. I have no idea if this is where I will stay , but for now, I will take it.
I have learned that karma does exist, and we should all be careful what we wish for. And I have learned that feeling sorry for someone can sometimes replace utter feelings of anger and dismay.
I am ready to take the next step of my journey on this earth and although it is not in the way that I had hoped for, I am happy that I am able to take it at all. Onwards and upwards. I can't wait to see what happens next. :)
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I don't really know the situation here, but...I had a very terrible falling out with all of my close friends a five or six years ago. Originally I was devastated, and then I realized, no one who was really my friend would treat me the way they did. And then myspace became popular and I reveled in the karma of how fat they all got. It might be wrong and shallow to be excited by things like that, but so be it.
Oh hell yea, gotta love when the dicky ex-friends become fat and gross. Nothing wrong with being excited about that ;)
Elise, you are one of the most awesome interesting people I know, so I know whatever path you take, there will be awesome great things for you!
Thank you Nova, that means a lot to me, and I agree with you wholeheartedly! :)
Let's you and me get all awesomely drunk and explore the full range of human emotions by happily dancing on the bar. It's how I like to break in all my new friends. Starting now.
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