Monday, June 22, 2009

Treading Water

I'm having a really hard time deciding if my life is going to get decidedly more exciting, or if it's just all going to blow up in my face in a big and bad way. Or neither. Maybe it's just wishful thinking, being that I've been coasting for the last six months or so and don't really have anything to show for it, and therefore need to hope and pray that I end up with something magnificent before I die of ennui or get evicted from my apartment.

Since I am still pretty much unemployed (had two interviews last week but haven't heard anything since then) I am going to have to get creative with the job hunt. I'm talking to a friend of mine about hostessing at a restaurant she manages. I'm looking at an opening at my favorite ice cream shop. I'm scouring the internet for weird odd jobs and, yet again, contemplating the nude model idea from way back when. My big bad memoir hasn't even begun to be written, so the likelihood of THAT providing me with any income anytime soon is just a wet dream at this point...but don't get me started or I will break down and sob about what a waste of life I am, and that, my friends, will just not be pretty.

As for my love's still pretty pathetic...and probably will remain so (which is still being done on purpose...I got a lecture from one of my friends a couple weeks ago that I am just still not ready to meet someone...and she is probably absolutely right). BUT, I have a few things up my sleeve by the way of a long-distance fling...a musician who is traveling the world right now...and a guy who owned his own truffle company (unfortunately it is NOT Jacques Torres). Of course none of these things are going to lead to anything good or real, but if I'm not "ready"...then why not have some fun while I wait it out, right?

And I totally caught a lawyer looking at my tits during the voir dire at jury duty today. He has Keith Partridge hair, feathered and all...and I kinda think he's hot. If I don't get picked for the case I'm going to try really hard to get me some of that. Haha!


emily said...

Keith Partridge hair? You are so funny. I vote that your life is going to get MORE exciting! And then I hope it's contagious!

The Dutchess of Kickball said...

OK, I know that this is going to come out wrong and probably make you feel worse. But I've been thinking what point in time in your life, do you have to tell yourself that all the things you too for granted that would happen sometime in your life (marriage, babies) just isn't going to happen for you. I don't think that that is true for you, but you and I seem to be in a similar place mentally.

i like cheese said...

Wow. Talk about kicking a gal when she's down!
Truth be told, I don't want any of those things, so that's where you and I might be different. I am a lot older than you (I think) and have had the opportunity for both marriage AND babies. I declined all. However, I do want to meet someone that I can have a mature and committed relationship with eventually. As for the point in your life where you tell yourself that something just isnt going to happen--I don't believe that there is any such point. You do what you do. If you want something badly enough, you will have it.

mister said...

I agree fully. My money is on you and I think that you will find what you are looking for and achieve your goals because you are who you are. Be naive. Don't listen to anyone. Just go forward.