Older and Wiser

On my way to my running class tonight, I passed a couple of dudes standing on the sidewalk. I was wearing tight little bike shorts and as I jogged by I tensed up, knowing the inevitable was about to take place.

'You got a fat ass. A nice, fat ass."

Yea man. I know. I've heard it all before. Don't you just WISH you could plant your face smack dab in the middle of its juicy goodness?

I think about how I used to respond to outbursts such as these-basically I would burst into tears and worry to death about how a stranger on the street used the word "fat" with regard to me. The horror.

Now, I take it for what it is, a moronic asshole who thinks that using the word "fat" is complimentary, for one thing, and for another thing, who gives a crap? i DO have a fat ass! I walk proudly, ass protruding, for the world to see. There's nothing I can do about it, so I embrace it.

It got me thinking about how, as much as I hate getting older, I really have changed in a lot of ways, when I think about who I was 1O or even 5 years ago.. the fact that I'm doing this triathlon, an event that would have scared the fuck out of me once upon a time...the fact that I was able to sit and have lunch with an old friend yesterday and have a face-to-face talk about why we had lost touch for several years (painful reasons and not easy to talk about--definitely a conversation that I would have been more comfortable having via email back in the day}, visiting a tattoo parlor with said friend to get myself one step closer to finally getting that Godamn tattoo I keep rambling about {I did not get the tattoo yet, but I will, I WILL}, allowing myself to be in a great relationship and KNOWING its great, and relishing it. Bottom line, I feel that I have been challenging myself more and pushing myself past normal comfort zones. That, to me, is a huge accomplishment.

But, because I'm still 12 years old at heart, I need to cut myself off here so I can finally catch the first two episodes of "Scott Baio 45 and Single". Some things will never change--my love for Scott Baio is one of them!